Envy

I find it hard to write new entries because of the nature of my work (I just ended a battle) but I promise I will post new entries every week! I have so many things to post up here, so keep a look out if you're interested.

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I read up articles on how to be a better person and know that envy isn't at all a positive feeling/ thought that one could feel. It slowly eats you up and the next thing you know is that you have been surrounded by darkness, can't find your way out. It may sound ridiculous but that's the after-effect of envious.

I find myself stuck in situations of always being envious of other people's lives. Like if they figured themselves out and I'm still have no idea who I am, I get angry with myself and on the more negative side, I ask myself why am I so useless. Other people start to know themselves better, at the same time found their talent, pursuing their dreams but why am I here, achieved nothing but just sitting here whining about life? 

We constantly think that we are not good enough. Comparing ourselves with other people whose lives are better than us and then we start asking ourselves why aren't we similar in any way? 

Truth is, there will always be people out there who are better than us, smarter than us, richer than us and all those endless comparisons you can think of. But there are things that can't be changed and I believe there's a reason for everything that happens. Every single difficult situation you got yourself into and all the decisions you've made for yourself, make you grow, shaping you to who you are today. They are the lessons of life.

We can have all the negative emotions and envy the famous celebrities for being so glamorous and rich, or successful business women/men for being smart and innovative but what we only focus on are their fruits of labour. We did not see how much they have suffered (which we may not want to go through ourselves) to get to where they are right now. 

Oh, I know. Social media apps are probably the main reason why we constantly feel that we are not enough. Beautiful/ expensive clothings, jewelleries, travelling around and the amazing friends the user possessed, gradually you will start to want all these things. So, unfollow them. Only follow the people who inspires you in a positive manner, instead of feeding you with unhealthy and negative thoughts. 

Envy can makes you feel discontented and you will start to complain about how imperfect your life is and start hating yourself for not being able to be like someone else. Change your mindset. It's easier said than done, but preach it, practice it. Start loving yourself more and appreciate the little things and efforts around you. Communicate with your family and friends, keep yourself occupied. And of course, stop comparing. 

Most importantly, be yourself.

Because you are enough.

xx

With love,